December 6

[Sarah]

I can finally enjoy Christmas because something dreadful I thought was going to happen didn't happen. I went to the docs begging for diazepam or even an anti psychotic, because they do calm you down - as I was terrified something would happen. It was rooted in reality, honest. It was a proper fear. A terror. She concluded that diazepam (another name for valium) was and I quote, "unsuitable for anxiety disorders associated with obsessional thoughts". WTF??? Wouldn't prescribe the anti psychotic either. Wanted to refer me to a shrink first. That would take approximately three months to effect.

I'd argue that all anxiety is obsessional in nature. If you can't get rid of crippling anxiety; then it's obsessive behaviour.

Who the fuck won't give valium, or any mood stabiliser, to a suicidal person (it got that bad)? She sent me away recommending a change in anti depressants. Another example of GPs knowing fuck all about mental illness.


Anyway I've calmed down now - no thanks to the GP concerned. I wish her a life time of slow broadband.

A man got his throat slashed on the tube in London today. His attacker shouted, "This is for Syria!" I knew Jeremy Corbyn was right about not going in. Nobody's safe now...

That new Adele song is woeful. How many times can she re-write "Someone Like You"?

[Feliz Navidad y Kao Año Nuevo!]

Sally, you're alive!. Bad girl for no posting a damn thing for ages!.
I'm proud to tell you that I lost 25 Kg in the last months, thanks to pharmaceutical help and the gym. Feel damn hot right now...I also grew up a beard so I look hipster-ish.
I would send you a photo but I forgot my username and password and franckly I also forgot how to post pics in these boards.
Have a nice holidays and drink some delicious homemade eggnot for me ok?...a big kiss.

[Sarah]

Hello Kao!

I'm amazed you came back. I don't really deserve any viewers / contributors. Congrats on losing weight and looking HAWT. I know I should have posted regularly - but I was incredibly depressed. I have decided to try and be more positive. I lasted three posts. It's only this last one that got a big negative in tone.

Anyway - I sent you an e mail but it came back 'undeliverable'. I think it's because you probably stopped using the e mail address I had for you. Your username was 'Kao' but obviously I don't know your password. Send me an e mail: [e-mail] I don't mind putting my e mail address out here because this website is on the dark side of the moon - NOBODY ever sees it.

When you have time (I realise with a child and job and Christmas you'll be busy) send me a picture of yoursef and Josefina. I have often wondered what she looks like now. If you send a picture as an attachment to the e mail address I listed above I promise not to post it on here.

Nice to hear from you! And if I don't hear from you before then 'Merry Christmas!'

[Kao Actually]

Sarah, I just send you an email with pics...I guess you initially tried to contact me on an old email I barely use.
Anyway, don't disappear again!...we love u as you are...Keep in touch..try to use facebook, you can be as secretive as you want.